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Codex Audentia

Codex: An ancient manuscript text in book form.
Audentia: Latin for “audacity”.

This is my codex — a working notebook with my notes, experiments, and rambles in their full glory. It is raw, unpolished and unfiltered.

This is not a blog.

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I’m building a 1,000 year company, and writing about the process.

Lessons from my failures (and successes)

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I recently had a business failure.

Long story short, here’s the bullet list of lessons learned. If you’re not me, and you’re reading this, just know that I wrote this for myself. It may or may not apply to you.

  1. Focus
    If I had to distill everything into one word, it would be focus. Focus, focus, focus. FOCUS! Ignore the free ice cream van.
  2. Keep focusing
    This is not a joke. Stop strategizing or changing things. Just STOP! Once you make a decision, don’t switch directions until you’ve burned the fucking tires and they’re melting on the tarmac. Finish all your thinking before the decision, not after. Set 1-2 metrics/lead measures and chase them into the horizon like a mindless dog.
  3. Velocity
    Blaze through your day. If you have time for idle bullshit, or if you’re slowing down, close shop. Your venture is dying anyway. Sure, smell the flowers – but do it quickly. Get used to doing the work of three people.
  4. Only hire people who are better than you.
    Your team’s talent density/concentration should keep going UP over time. Each new hire should improve the average quality of your existing team members. It’s the only criterion that matters in the end. If you can’t hire someone truly remarkable, don’t hire. If a candidate likely keeps the average quality of your team constant, don’t hire. You don’t have the luxury of time spent coaching and training people to make them “better.” You’re an entrepreneur, not a manager. Stop fucking managing.
  5. The best time to fire someone is the first time it crosses your mind
    Harsh but true. The first time it crosses your mind, talk to the person to figure out what’s going on. If you don’t walk away with huge confidence that you should keep them, fire them immediately. But do it right by them – it was your mistake to hire them, so they deserve to be treated fairly.
  6. It’s okay to be tough
    Don’t strangle your inner toughness. Don’t make an “effort” to be nice. Nobody cares about “nice” people. Let people self-select themselves out of your life.
  7. (Bonus) Expect Success.
    You cannot be in doubt when fighting a monster. You have to have the conviction: when I drive my sword into its heart, the monster will die, and I will emerge victorious.

    You don’t need to be sure of how you will get your sword to reach the monster’s chest. You just need to have the conviction that it will happen, and all you have to do is get over the obstacles in the way.

    Without this conviction, you will prepare for failure instead of success – and your failure becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. You will simply keep dodging the monster’s attacks, trying to stay alive, until you’re tired and dead.

    Expect to emerge victorious in the end. Expect to hold success in your hands. Visualize victory.

Why I never hired for “Experience”

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I never understood the concept of hiring people based on an arbitrary number of how many years they’ve existed in an industry.

Experience is wonderful, but it’s only helpful in very specific types of jobs:

1/ When you need someone who has PRACTICED (to achieve a certain level of skill): some things just have to be polished by deep intentional training and repetition. There’s no way around it.

2/ You need them to have a huge pre-existing NETWORK (which takes time to build): whether you build those connections one by one, or at scale through a large audience or community.

Both of these compound over time, and there are no shortcuts to building them. But the focus should still be on the QUALITY of experience, not the “number of years.” I believe the quality of experience (what they did during that time) can only be seen in examples of their work, so my hiring process was always more focused on online exercises and take-home assignments.

All other reasons for hiring for “experience” are frivolous.

In my controversial opinion, someone looking for a job that they have already done a thousand times is often (though not always) a sign that they’re stagnant and not learning anything new.

The best pros want to challenge, reinvent, and stretch themselves into uncomfortable territory. If it’s not a little scary, it’s boring.

But then, I might be biased.

Being Boring

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I live a fairly austere lifestyle.

I don’t drink alcohol.

I don’t drink tea.

I don’t drink coffee.

I eat 99% vegan – almost never consuming meat, fish, chicken, dairy, or eggs.

I don’t eat much sugar.

I like music, but only in the background. I’m not a big fan, and I’m not an early adopter.

I don’t like buying new clothes.

And of course, I don’t smoke.

Never used weed or acid or any recreational drugs.

I don’t go to nightclubs or bars.

And I don’t watch porn.

A lot of people ask me, what do I do?

The truth is, I don’t feel like I’m supposed to consume certain things to increase enjoyment in my life. It’s just how I am.

It’s like I’m creating my own version of The Monk Life.

(More on this later.)

Death and Time: Living a Life of Home Runs

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In recent months, I’ve been struggling with my mortality, as well as the fact that the universe is too big, vast, and ancient – and permanent – for me to make any significant impact.

I live on a tiny speck of dust, floating in an ocean of stars. All our history (and future) is limited to a few thousand years of this little wet particle. Whatever I can build or achieve during my lifetime, is temporary – it will only push this world a tiny bit.

The sad thing is that we are too small, insignificant, and doomed to perish right where we are, without ever being able to see or appreciate the beauty and vastness of this physical universe.

And on top of that, I could die at any time. I have no way to know whether it will be today, in just a few hours, or 70 years later when I’m 100 years old. Life and death are unpredictable.

To make matters even worse, I do not know what will happen when I’ll die or what lies “after” that event. It has nothing to do with whether I choose to believe in God or not – the fact remains that I don’t know. It could be blissful heaven or burning hell, or it could be the END, i.e. eternal darkness and unconsciousness – with all my memories and experiences forgotten and lost forever — or it could even be an afterlife here on Earth (or somewhere else?).

To summarize this gloomy picture,

  1. We are born in a tiny corner of the universe, where we barely have any control over what happens around us, and can do nothing that is remotely meaningful given the vastness of space and time. Our actions and choices have no consequence in this universe, nor can we understand how it truly works.
  2. We are dealt a card, in terms of the physical body and mind we’re given by luck, the family and society, and the technological era we are born in.
  3. We are doomed to die, sooner or later. We have no idea when this experience called “life” is meant to end – in a few minutes, or in a few decades. We also don’t know HOW it will end – painfully or peacefully.
  4. We do not know what death even is. It’s the ultimate unknown. It could be the “end” as our minds cease to exist, or it could be the beginning of another journey (which could be painful, pleasurable, or something else).
  5. We do not know if we even have any free will, or is everything pre-written and destined to happen, with us simply being puppets of time – thinking that we have any choice at all.

Our “life” could practically be an illusion altogether, with us being AI characters in a simulation.

The Way Forward

1. Life may be short, therefore – chase the fleeting experiences and simple pleasures. Ichi-go, ichi-e. Be playful, don’t take life too seriously, and welcome whatever lands in your plate. Share love and positive energy.

2. However, life may also be long, and afford us enough time to achieve great ends and be all we can be – MAXIMIZE and OUTDO ourselves, polish our craft, and think BIG. Push for societal and technological change.

On both points, we must actively seek risks and double our failure rate.

In summary:

Be playful. We “spawn” into this world as a game character. Have fun.

You might have plenty of time. Take your inner gifts, and polish your crafts. Strive to become a more perfect soul.

Whether you have little time or lots of time, think bigger. Even your wildest possible ambition is a safe, boring choice when placed within the eternity of time. Stop pontificating over trivial things, stop playing small.

Swing for the biggest home runs you could possibly imagine. Make the boldest proposals. Cold call the gods themselves.

Expand your comfort zone with practice. Each week, do at least one thing that could create “home run” progress. Train your identity to be bigger.

Fin.

The Four Pillars Behind All Achievement

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It took me ages to have this epiphany. And now I’m sharing this with you.

To accomplish anything great, you must get these four things right.

And if you’ve ever failed to accomplish something, it was probably rooted in one of them going wrong.

Mindset

Strategy

Tactics

Discipline of Execution

Do whatever you can to diagnose where your issue is. And then fill in the gap.

You heard it here first!

Falling vs. Scaling

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There seem to be roughly two approaches to accomplish something great.

One is to put yourself in a position where, if you don’t succeed, you “die.” There is no backup, no plan B. It’s what’s called “jumping off the cliff and building an airplane on the way down.”

Doing it this way is more chaotic, more exhilarating, and also automatically makes you more focused. It also makes your team more tight, because nothing bonds people better than trying to overcome a large shared threat. The high stress is accompanied by high euphoria.

I’ll call this, quite literally, “falling” to succeed. It takes an ungodly appetite for risk and adventure. And often, the fall can literally handicap you for years. But the fear itself keeps you going and squeezes every ounce of creativity and hustle in you.

But there’s also another way, which is to slowly, diligently scale a mountain. Putting one step ahead of the other. Sometimes taking a few steps back too, but overall you’re always moving in the upward direction.

This style is characterized by the “long slog.” Putting in the reps, the work, day after day, getting better over time and letting the compounding effect work for you. A lot of “artist” type entrepreneurs do it this way.

This style (“scaling”) takes tremendous discipline. It’s very easy to get distracted, to lose momentum, or lose faith. It’s also quite deceptive – it’s easy to delude yourself into thinking you’re scaling the mountain, while you’ve been sitting at “base camp” for years and not even making a move, while other climbers come and pass you by.

Putting one more step forward at a time sounds simple in theory, but is the hardest thing to consistently do over time. Of course, you could get lucky and “break out” sooner than later, but you have to keep scaling (producing a large body of work) or the market will “correct” itself and you’ll quickly become a “has-been.”

It would be nice to strike a balance. While the greatest creations of humankind have come from SCALING, it’s good to have periods of steep FALLING once in a while that gets your blood going.

Because I’m more of a “scaling” person (although some risk-averse people would say I’m more of a daredevil, I know I’m not), this post is actually a reminder to myself that a little bit of falling is essential.

The key, is to always be in a position where you can SLIP – even if you’re supposedly trying to scale slowly. If there’s no risk of a fall, you’ll get stuck resting at the same altitude forever. As soon as you reach a “camp” (i.e. some measure of stable success), get climbing towards the next one. The always-present risk of slipping and falling will keep life interesting, and keep you motivated on a daily basis.

How I Hire: The Heart of a Teacher

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Nobody can be the expert on everything. As an entrepreneur, I always have to find people who know more than me, and trust them to do their job.

But hiring is tough (and that’s probably an understatement). People lie in interviews all the time (from both sides) trying to make the best impression. And often, jobs go to the best salesperson, not the most suitable person (at least for non-technical/managerial roles).

When I’m hiring someone – whether it’s a freelancer on Upwork or Fiverr, or a consultant – I use one key criterion to filter them out, and it works so well that often I’m left with only one candidate at the end.

It’s their ability and willingness to TEACH — to EDUCATE me a little, so I walk away having learned a new thing or two right from my first interaction from them. Good teachers have an excellent grasp on their subject to begin with, they are excellent communicators, and they also have a GIVER’s attitude which makes them decent human beings (in general).

To put this into practice, when I message a freelancer or start an interview, I usually start with a question that goes like, “hey I’m not an expert on this thing, so could you maybe educate me a little about how it works, and what I should be looking for?”

The non-teacher will give me a curt or very concise answer that can be summarized as, “this is what I need from you, and this is what you’ll get from me.” Or at most, they’ll ask me a couple questions and then give me that same answer. Either way, it’s not what I want.

And what will great teachers do instead? We know it when they do it. It’s not hard to see.

A special thank you to Dave Ramsey who first introduced me to this concept in a youtube video.

The Monk Life

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It took me a long time to learn that being a HIGH-PERFORMANCE PERSON demands the “monk life.”

Any great endeavour, personal growth, or massive success is rooted in sacrifice.

A balanced life is an average life. Achieving high performance means you can only obsess over 1-2 priorities (maybe 3) in your life — the ones that bring you the most meaning and joy — and everything else usually has to be renounced.

When looking for the City of Gold in the rainforest, you must be willing to take a machete in your hands and hack away at the vines in your way. To find Treasure Island, you must leave the shore and set sail. You can’t have both. You have to pick and choose.

High-performance living is not for everyone, because for most people, the sacrifices aren’t worth it. And that’s okay too – no judgment.

I lived the “casual” way for a long time myself and kept wondering why I wasn’t getting the results I wanted. I had made lists of all the things I WOULD do. But I was afraid to decide what I WON’T do.

What we DELETE from our routines is as important as what we ADD.

The Monk Life is the ticket to success and greatness because once you choose it, you’re no longer held back by things that do not serve you.

Accepting the Monk Life starts to change your self-image. The mere act of sacrifice automatically lifts you up from the “pretenders” and places you among the “contenders.” The proof of your own conviction begins to erode your self-doubt.

Living the Monk Life means you’ve accepted the arena as your home. You belong to it, and are a gladiator by default. Winning is no longer a wish or a dream; it’s your job.

I challenged myself to get a black belt in Judo in 12 months, training at the Kodokan in Tokyo.

I challenged myself to achieve fluency in Japanese in 12 months. The result blew me away.

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